The Start of it All

   This whole blogging thing is new to me but I wanted to give it a go...I love to write, love to spill my brain. I'm not really expecting anyone to read this but I am thinking it is going to do a lot for my sanity to clear my head in a space where I think no one is listening. 

   The last two months have been very strange for me. A lot has changed in my thinking, and I have made a lot of little and big decisions that will surely turn my life in a new direction. I am trying to forget about what I think I want in life and what I think is best for me and fully trust God and listen to what he has for me. This is VERY hard for me!!! I don't know if I can explain it any other way. You know how you always tell your friends when they are going through something, "Well just give it to God!" or "We'll just have to trust God, He knows what's best! It will all work out!" I am one of those friends! That is my first answer for everything...but I'm gonna let you in on a little secret...I don't always believe that. In fact i RARELY believe it. It's so easy to say you trust God, but when it comes down to it, do you REALLY trust Him. I know I don't always trust that He has everything under control. Maybe it's because I am such a control freak, maybe this is harder for me, but I have a feeling I am not the only one who struggles in this area. 

   I am starting a book, Stop Acting Like a Christian, Just be One, and I think I am really going to get a lot out of it. I am trying to figure out what it looks like to really be a christian...this word has been so twisted, I don''t even like using it. So many "christians" have ruined it for the rest of us and more importantly, those who are not christians. I am searching for what this is all really about, instead of what we've made it to be...if anyone can really figure that out.

   

   Thanks for listening!