So in this blog I am just going to tell it like it is. The past month or so has been rough. I have realized that I have been holding on to a lot of things in my past that I just can't seem to let go. I guess it's a daily battle. I have been reading, praying, and studying the Word more than ever. But I still seem to be missing something; TRUST. I don't know how to trust God. The funny thing is, when I give other people advice this is the first thing I tell them..."trust God." And I believe He will come through for them or make a way. With all my heart I believe! But when it comes to my own life I really struggle with trusting that God wants to provide for me, or that He has my best interest at heart. Somehow I don't think I am worthy enough. (And I'm not, but Jesus tore that veil and made a way when He died on the cross for us, for ME.) I know all of this, yet somehow I still can't seem to trust Him! This infuriates me more than anything.
James 1:2-4 says "Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be MATURE and COMPLETE, not lacking anything." This is my prayer right now: That God would make me mature and complete, not lacking anything. But I have to remember to trust God.
Just last night I was telling someone that my dad had made a decision for me. They then asked how I felt about the decision and I said, "It really doesn't matter because I just have to know that he is my daddy and he has my best interest at heart. So I have to trust that he made the decision that was best for me." At that moment It was like the words coming out of my mouth were from the God, about God. He is my Daddy and He has my best interest at heart, therefore I must trust Him.
Someone, besides me needed that.
