Friday was my last day as a nanny! Bittersweet, really, but if I am ever going to finish school, (and I AM going to finish!) I really need a job with a not so crazy schedule with less responsibility and more flexibility. I could hear God telling me it is time to move on for quite sometime now, but he made it very clear a couple of weeks ago. So I went out and got a job at Steak N Shake...but I couldn't do it. I had an icky feeling about it. As most of you know, I follow my instinct. I am a BIG believer in intuition. So I decided not to take the job. Most of you think this is stupid. Don't get me wrong, I am the biggest planner you will ever meet but right now, in my life, God is wanting me to let go and let Him be God. So, as hard as it is for me to do, I am letting go of the control and Giving it over to the one who has FULL control. I am expecting great things in this Chapter of my life as I learn to rely on Him for my EVERY need.

I am not the type to over-spiritualize anything but sometimes God just wants you to learn to trust Him.

I will be sure to update you all, whoever reads this ;), as God does things I can't even dream of during this time!

Do I deserve it?

Today I was praying and God really opened up my eyes to how I view myself and my life. I think that because I made mistakes in my past, I don't deserve the things that other people have. Or the things that I really want in life...the husband, the ministry, the kids...even though I believe all of these things are God's will for my life, I still can't help but think that they are an unachievable dream.

But I keep forgetting one thing. The Bible doesn't say God will give me the desires of my heart only if I never make any mistakes....God says,"You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it." John 14:14. We must align our hearts with His and ask, in His name, for the desires He has placed in our heart. Not only that, but we (myself included) must BELIEVE we are worth it. God doesn't love us any less because of the sins we have committed. If we come with a repentant heart, He is waiting to forgive and wrap us in His unconditional love! THANK YOU, LORD for this! Teach me to love like you do!

So no matter what you've done, thought, said...etc...God is quick to forgive you and slow to anger. So bring all you have to His table and receive His grace in full and live in the freedom of His love.