New Year: New Blog.

I figured I would go ahead and write my annual new year blog. I just noticed that I haven't blogged since June, and assuming there is at least one person who reads it, my bad. I'm in a weird place this year. This was a very busy year for me, and it seems the same for everyone else. I have a few goals for this year. I don't like calling them resolutions, I feel as if that is lame. The first is like everyone else: to LOOSE weight! Not only that but to just get healthy! It seems as though I thought I could eat whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted, without exercising and nothing would happen. Boy was I wrong! The Lbs just piled on. So I have already signed up for weight watchers, I have also been to a meeting and have been sticking to it pretty well.

The second goal is: to GET BACK IN CHURCH! on a regular basis. I compare myself to where I was last year at this time with my christian walk, BIG difference. I was a leader for a young adults ministry and in church at least twice a week. Now? I work on Saturdays and Sundays. Yes, I know they have services on Saturday night and I get off around 3 so I could go if I really wanted. To tell you the truth, I don't really want to. In November I resigned as a leader because I was so burned out. Not only am I burned out on ministry but I am a little burned out on Church all together. I am so tired of the way christians treat each other that it makes me not even want to go at all. (However I did go to Gateway Sunday night and it was good.) I have to admit I feel a little numb inside. I don't really care about anything right now, except school.

The Third goal is: to learn to say NO! I have a hard time admitting to others and to myself that I cannot or don't have to time to do something so I overwhelm myself trying to do everything and be everywhere. This year I am going to calm down and take a day off every week.

The fourth and final goal is: just to be a better person all around. I get so wrapped up in myself all the time, that I forget about others. As most of you know I don't beat around the bus and have a zero B.S. tolerance. I tend to like that about myself but I do think I could be a little more considerate with the feelings of others. I wouldn't necessarily like to be talked to the way I always talk to others.

So there it is, maybe not as profound as last year but I cannot even describe how difficult it was to even make myself write this. Happy reading and hopefully more to come soon!