life update...

Wow. It's been a while since I've last written. Frankly I haven't wanted to. I am at this weird stage of my life where, to most of the world, it doesn't look like I have a lot going for me. Sometimes, I admit, I buy into this lie. The truth is, I have a lot going for me. I have 2 more weeks left at this temp nanny job I have been working, and I might cry when it is over. I have been taking care of the kids I used to nanny before I moved to Houston in the fall of '08. I am not going to lie, I have been loving EVERY minute of it! The snuggling up and watching movies, playing games, making crafts, and I even get a kick out of the mischievous side. Let's face it, I have missed these boys like CRAZY! They are the closest I am going to get right now to having kids, and even better because I can leave at 6pm when they are getting cranky! I have no idea what step is next in my life. I am determined to hit school and hit it hard! I have finally decided on a degree....after YEARS of going back and forth, and nothing is going to stop me from finishing. Hospitality Management, doesn't it just sound like me?? I am super hospitable and i LOVE to manage! haha!

OH! remember the blog I wrote a few months ago? The Stage?? well here is an update...I am singing Sunday night for the first time in YEARS! Pray for me!

I have been in quite a funk lately. It seems my life has been on hold for a couple of months now and I am tired of it. In this "hold," it seems that I can't get control of anything. (which is horrible for a control freak like me!) I can't seem to drag myself to the gym, or eat healthy food, or even have a regular quiet time with God, and it seems I could use it now more than ever! I think I have reached my breaking point though and it is time for a change.

When I was reading in my quiet time today I came across some scriptures that really spoke to me. Psalm 9:9-10 "The Lord is a refuge for the oppressed, a stronghold in times of trouble. Those who know your name will trust in you, for you, Lord, have never forsaken those who seek you." wow...this pretty much speaks for itself. Lately it just seems to me that God is not here. I know He is but it just seems like He isn't. When I was reading, He made it VERY clear that He has NEVER nor will he EVER leave me or forsake me. Thank you Lord for your unfailing love. Even when I do not deserve it. Even when I choose other things over you, you are still faithful. You still answer my prayers from your holy hill. Thank you Lord that "You are a shield around me, O Lord; you bestow glory on me and lift up my head. To the Lord I cry aloud, and he answers me from His holy hill." These are some powerful words from the Lord. I hope it speaks to you as much as it does to me.

I challenge everyone to crack open the word of God today and see what He wants to speak to your life!